Pent up anger that I never really got out

You know what? You played me for such a long time. I gave you chance after chance after chance to be what I expected, for you to live up to my standards, and even then I had to lower them for you. You never loved me, if you would've loved me, you would've tried to give me what I want, you would've done what was best for me, and do you really think that was sitting in bed all day for an entire summer? Um, no. And I hate that you were there to share so much of my life with me. I'm really angry that you got to see that side of me and I was completely open with you, because you really didn't deserve that. You shouldn't have been there at my birthday, and you shouldn't have been there with me during the March break, and you shouldn't have met everyone in my family, because now that I think about it - I'm ashamed of you. And who wouldn't be? You have a lackluster job, you're going nowhere in life, you're chasing a childish dream in a no name town, and you're too scared to leave it. You're not attractive and you have no sell-able skills. Hmmmm. Totally boyfriend material. Like, what was I thinking? I'm just so mad at so many different things, and you have no idea. And then you have the nerve to get mad at me for one mistake? And I admit, it was big. But there are so many things that I would love to say to your face, that I would love to point out to you. If you had actually listened to me and realized my values and the things that are super important to me, instead of being so egotistical and self-centered and closed-minded, then you would've realized that I gave up SO MUCH to be with you. And you weren't willing to give up a thing. What a dick. Fuck you. I honestly hope that all of your future relationships are ruined because of the memory of me, because you promised me that they would be. Not that you ever kept your promises.

Want free shares for a new social network? Its called Zurker (google it, if you want) and you can join here: http://www.zurker.ca/i-161703-adhxzwrnwn . When you join, you get free shares to the network, and its invitation only.

Ughhhhhhhh, boyfriends are annoying

So, as much as I love my boyfriend, sometimes he is super annoying and he doesn't even realize it. Like today. I called him last and we made plans to go shopping so he could pick out a $100 watch I am buying for him out of the blue. It was supposed to be a surprise, but something was pissing me off and I kind of let it slip about a week ago. The plans were tentative, but he had work until 11:30, so I told him that I'd be spending the morning looking for a new camera charger (lost it), and then we'd head out. So I'd probably meet him at the station that is TRES FAR FOR ME, but the one closest to his house at 1 ish. So I call him and see if that still works, and he's like, "No, I won't be able to make it until like 4:30." THAT IS 3.5 HOURS LATER, MY LOVE. THREE AND A HALF. But fine, no, it's totally fine. Whatever. I can go shopping to buy you an expensive gift BY MYSELF. Of course, no big deal. And then after we'll go out for dinner to meet your favourite uncle in the entire universe? Cool. I'm only living at my friend's place, and have no nice clothing. But sure, whatever. Let his first impression of me be in jeans and a sweatshirt. It's totally fine. Boyfriends. They're annoying. -PB.

Cutest Proposal Ever!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IaqBXGnj2lQ

Sorry guys for the random posts. I've been watching romcoms and chickflicks since I got home from Queen's - beautiful campus and an amazing city. I still haven't made my decision yet. I'm not going to rank about how I got rejected from Mac though. Different story.

Anyway, I looooooooooooooooooooove this proposal. Tis uber cute. But I'm sorry, the ring should be in the box. The guy should get down on one knee. And the ring should fit. If you're going to propose, do it right.

But still, uber cute. The opening a bigger box thing until you get to your small gift is always a classic. I love it. Every time. :)

Anyway, back to Serendipity. One of my favourite chick flicks of all time. :)
Again, it makes me feel like I'm in a fairytale. I hope it ends happily ever after.

Prudence B.

PS: I hate her boyfriend. OMG.

omg; i love t swift

http://vimeo.com/user6605365/meanvideo

So I know loving Taylor Swift is such a trend right now, but I've loved her since I heard Tim McGraw for the first time. Anyway, I absolutely love this video!

On that note, this song brings me back to someone who bullied me when I was a kid. And you know what, honestly, everyone's been bullied. Everyone experiences the same kinds of pain and the same hurt. I know it doesn't make me different or special.

But you know what, I stopped the cycle. I was strong. I forgave her/ him/ them all. I am not bitter. But karma is a bitch.

Who has the fairytale happily ever after? Me. Who has the grades? Me. Who has all the options in the world? Me. Who can lay their head on their pillow without any regrets? Me. Who has so many people who love them? Me. Who is a beautiful person? Me. I don't care if you disagree or not, I'm happy with my life. I'm proud of who I am. Things worked out for me. You are just jealous. I don't have anything against you and I don't wish anything bad on you.

I'm happy. That's what this song reminds me.

Love always,
Prudence B.

All you are is mean, and a liar, and pathetic
And alone in life and mean, and mean, and mean, and mean
But someday, I'll be living in a big ol' city
And all you'll ever gonna be is mean
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're even gonna be is mean

sooooooooooo much to do

Hey readers.

So, guess who's absolutely crazy? Me. Yup.

I'm completely psychotic. Wooooo. I signed up for 4 AP exams. FOUR. F-O-U-R!
Chemistry (done), Calculus (done), Biology (soon to come) and Physics (immediately after that). Whatever, right?

Well, that's not my point. I have to study for bio and physics. On top of that, I have regular school, isus, work, band, MULTI NIGHT (I'M SO DEAD.) and chores.

Tonight alone, I stayed at school until 4 practicing River Dance (omfg, im dead.), then I studied for 3 hours, now I need to help my mom do computer stuff, clean my room, make lesson plans, organize my work folder and sleep. Yay.

I'll suffer through. Just needed to make a to do list, haha.

Love always,
PrudenceB.

PS: This song is the only thing that gets me through the day.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YC9Jxi78G1I

Rant for the Evening

I understand that some people have issues that they're concerned about, and they want to share these issues. Hell, I'm one of those people.

But they need to realize that most people don't care. And most people aren't going to be bought by facts and numbers and words and presentations. Because they've seen and heard it all before. And the most that's going to happen is they're going to think about it for five minutes, and then find something else to interest them.

The only people who are going to think about this issue are the people who probably already care or who already care about a different issue. And to the latter, the issue that they care about is probably more important.

It really bugs me when somebody thinks they know about their issue, but they really don't. And they really don't even care about the issue they're presenting about. Or they're hypocritical. Like, if I ask you a question about your issue and you read one website and give me a shitty answer and then tell me to read this website, and I do more research and more digging than you do and find the opposite of your answer, I'm sorry. Please, do not try to fool me. I care about global issues, I know how to use the Internet, and my number one favourite thing to do is research. Especially issues.

Next time, inform yourself before you try to inform others. Thanks.

Prudence B.

PS: I bought new clothes today. And I am ordering shoes tomorrow. This makes me happy. :)

PPS: Long distance relationships have hope, right?

Rant for the Morning

So what if I'm not the prettiest girl, or the smartest, or the best? So what if I'm just myself and I don't try to be anyone else? So what if I'm not the most popular or the coolest? So what? So what if you're dating somebody else when you should be dating me? I'm not saying I'm better, and I'm not saying she's worse. I'm just saying that it's your loss, not mine. And so what if I'm angry? So what if I liked you? Yes, I did. As in PAST TENSE. SO WHAT?! I'm still me. I'm still not trying to be her. And now I realize that I really don't want to go out with someone who doesn't have a real education and who is probably going to be paid minimum wage for the rest of their life. But please, stop bragging about how beautiful your girlfriend is on Facebook. Because, yes, she's pretty, but she's not the prettiest girl either.

I feel better.
-Prudence B.

Oh, irony

Remember how I liked a boy?

Well, now he has a girlfriend. I guess I'll get over him; what other choice do I have?
You know what, he's hurt me once before so never again will he hurt me.

"In all the lives of those around me, there seems to be an abundance of love, yet in my own this is what is lacking the most." - anonymous

Adieu,
Prudence B

Christmas

Hey readers

Just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas, despite the fact that anyone an hour or more ahead of Toronto will say that I'm too late.

Anyway, I had a very good Christmas. I got a replacement iPod for the one that got stolen in Ireland, but score: this one has a camera and FaceTime! I also got my own camera and it's awesome. It's not an SLR but it takes great photos, has a wicked awesome zoom and has a GPS! Wouldn't that have been awesome for the summer, considering that was when I did most of my traveling? Anyway, I got some really nice clothes too! Some new pants, a really cute shirt and an amazing dress.

Speaking of clothes, I don't understand how at some stores a size 0 is too big, yet at other stores a size 3 is too small. Tis ridicules! I'm actually really happy about how much weight I've lost. And no, it's not because I thought I was fat, just out of shape. But I'm much more fit now and I've manages to really tone my legs and buttocks. :)

This is the third time I've heard Crazy by Aerosmith today. I don't know why... But on that note, I think I like someone. Actually, I know I like him, I just can't decide if I want to get over him or let myself keep my feelings for him. Right now, I'm leaning toward the latter. Problem is that he lives really far away. Like, I couldn't even drive there far away. I'll see him again in a few months, I guess. Then we'll see where things go. Unfortunately, I have no idea how he feels. And I find myself more and more tempted to ask him or tell him how I feel, but somebody once told me that if a guy cares for me, he's only worth caring for if he has the courage to tell me. So I've been sticking to that since then. ... Anyway. He was what I really wanted for Christmas... Maybe it'll happen for my birthday. One can dream.

Well, I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!

Love always,
Prudence B <3

toxin-free = weight loss?

http://www.healthybitchdaily.com/post/are-toxins-making-you-fat

just read. you will understand.

xoxo,
Prudence B.

Lots of articles

Hey readers,

So school has started up again and I've been surprisingly not too busy.
School is good, two spares are incredibly helpful and work doesn't start for another two weeks. :)

SO, I'm actually reading my email! :O

Here are a bunch of articles that are really interesting and I thought I would share.
http://prime.peta.org/2010/08/a-proven-method-of-girth-control?=cppenews0810
http://prime.peta.org/2010/08/does-that-chicken-make-me-look-fat?=cppenews0810
http://www.grist.org/article/2010-08-20-ask-umbras-advice-on-sustainable-campuses-and-school-fundraisers
http://www.grist.org/article/2010-08-19-turning-yesterdays-fugly-into-todays-fashion-for-1
http://www.worldwildlife.org/who/media/press/2010/WWFPresitem17536.html
http://www.grist.org/article/2010-08-18-invitation-to-join-350-earth-a-global-satellite-art-project

More to come later. :)

TWO IN ONE DAY! :O

GASP.

I just need to vent.
I hate it when cute innocent kids all of a sudden become really arrogant and really cocky.

This guy who I've known since he was little was the nicest guy I've ever met.

Now, he's cocky as hell.

It bothers me.
Then again, he's a hockey player and thus, I am not overly surprised.

Oh well.

This summer has been interesting.
I feel like I've been changed for the better, but when thinking about it, I don't think I have.
I feel like more of a real person, someone who isn't perfect. It's a good feeling. :)

Unfortunately, back to my studious and boring ways now that school has started and it's all about UNIVERSITY.
Which I should really be researching rather than facebook/reading/blogging about nonsense.

Au revoir mes amis,
Prudence B.

Summer 2010

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeello readers! :D

No doubt you've been wondering about my absense, or like my friends, you've been dying to hear stories about Ireland.

Well, there may be a time for that, but it is not now.
Neither will I tell you stories from my cottage.

For now, I want to talk about this:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Great_Pacific_Garbage_Patch

The Great Pacific Garbage Patch.

It is actually the most disgusting thing I've ever seen!
Not only the sight, but the thought alone sickens me.

It's HUGE.
It's actually a huge dump in the middle of the Pacific, estimated to be twice the size of Texas! YUCK.

Anyway, I'm not going to tell you what you can read for yourself, but here's a funny mockumentary on the plastic bag.

I advise you watch it. :)

http://www.ecostiletto.com/index.php?%2FBeauty%2Fvideo%2Fyoull_laugh_youll_cry_heal_the_bays_plastic_bag_mockumentary_now_on_ec%2F

Ttfn.
Prudence B.

P.S.: How was everyone's first day of school? I've got two spares this year. Happiness at last. :) Minus the fact that they're in the middle of the day! I just think this will FORCE me to do work, or I can take a long lunch. ;)

IRELAND

K, so readers.

Guess where I've been for the past month?!

IRELAND.

Making new friends, pubbing and clubbing, meeting Irish boys, exploring the world, and getting a credit.

I had tons of fun, learned a lot and met the BEST people ever.

Despite all of this, I don't have time to post since I'm going to my cottage in the morning.

xoxo,
Prudence B. ;]

PS: http://www.ecostiletto.com/index.php?/GoodLife/Comments/

Exams

Exams, so no time to post.

Links:
http://prime.peta.org/2010/06/mother-and-baby-orca-die-at-seaworld?=cppenews0510

That's it for today. :P

More Links :)

Guys.

I'm so happy, it's unbelievable!

I have almost completely eliminated all of my stresses.
One physics project, which I'm not worried about, and one religion test, which I'm also not worried about, left to go!

Then exams.
Which I'm strangely, not worried about either.
I will be, soon.

I still haven't found anyone to go to the Bike In Movie with me.
But that's quite alright. :)

ANYWAY,

more links from my email. :)

http://blog.peta.org/archives/2010/04/apples_apps.php
http://prime.peta.org/2010/06/peta-prime-summer-reading-list-sci-fi-edition-the-keepers?=cppenews0510

That's it for today!

Have a great weekend!

xoxo,
Prudence B. ;)

COOLEST THING EVER!

Hey readers... or lack there of, as Angelina just pointed out.

I think this is the coolest thing ever.
It's like the greatest idea.

So, it's Pin It for the Planet Week at WWF.
They're asking people to pin their car keys to their shirts to show that they're not driving for the week.

It's interesting, but it's not the coolest thing ever.

ON SATURDAY NIGHT, THEY'RE HAVING A BIKE IN MOVIE.

I think it's suhweet.
Eff you Jess.
She's looking over my shoulder, laughing at me.

Anyway,

here's the link:
https://community.wwf.ca/PinIt/bike_movie.cfm

Wanna go?

xoxo,
Prudence B. ;)

EMAIL OVERLOAD

So, I've been busy.

And my email inbox is piling up.
So I just finished my Music ISU - YAY ME! - and I decided I deserved a break.

Here are the articles I wish I could read now, but don't have time for. :)

http://prime.peta.org/2010/05/keeping-your-pooch-safe-in-the-garden?=cppenews0510
http://prime.peta.org/2010/05/peta-primes-summer-reading-list?=cppenews0510
http://blog.peta2.com/2010/05/save_animals_with_your_yearbook.html?c=peta2_enews
http://apps.facebook.com/shiveringkittens/?auth_token=b3a63f0bbc3021d2c3a5a5c07e73d487&installed=1
http://prime.peta.org/2010/05/humane-gardening-tips-fake-snakes-serve-as-serpent-sentries?=cppenews0510
http://prime.peta.org/2010/05/doing-whats-best-for-injured-and-abandoned-wildlife?=cppenews0510

MAY DAY!

READERS.

I am so excited.
I just got back from the Taylor Swift concert.
She is honestly the prettiest and sweetest girl I've ever seen.

She is so cute, she got so teary eyed when she heard how loud we screamed for her.
That's the sweetest and humblest thing I have ever seen!

ANYWAY.
My May has been mega hectic!
Between ISUs, work, writing report cards, and trying to have a life, I've been extrememly mega busy.

But, today marked the day that starts the best week + a bit of my year!

Friday, May 21: TAYLOR SWIFT CONCERT.
Saturday, May 22: First Saturday since Easter I get to sleep in. Also, last DI meeting for the year, then sleepover at Angie's.
Sunday, May 23: HARRY POTTER EXHIBIT AT THE SCIENCE CENTRE.
Monday, May 24: Finish ALL work for rest of year except exams. LEAVE FOR TENNESSEE.
THEN, FOR THE NEXT WEEK, I get a break from school and I get to go to Knoxville, Tennessee.

I'm sooooooooooo looking forward to it.
And in DI, we've stepped EVERYTHING up a couple of notches.

Just like in Glee, when Artie steppped up his dancing. ;)

Anyway,
I'm mega tired from my mega busy day today.
So, goodnight! <3

Prudence B. ;)