You know what? You played me for such a long time. I gave you chance after chance after chance to be what I expected, for you to live up to my standards, and even then I had to lower them for you. You never loved me, if you would've loved me, you would've tried to give me what I want, you would've done what was best for me, and do you really think that was sitting in bed all day for an entire summer? Um, no. And I hate that you were there to share so much of my life with me. I'm really angry that you got to see that side of me and I was completely open with you, because you really didn't deserve that. You shouldn't have been there at my birthday, and you shouldn't have been there with me during the March break, and you shouldn't have met everyone in my family, because now that I think about it - I'm ashamed of you. And who wouldn't be? You have a lackluster job, you're going nowhere in life, you're chasing a childish dream in a no name town, and you're too scared to leave it. You're not attractive and you have no sell-able skills. Hmmmm. Totally boyfriend material. Like, what was I thinking? I'm just so mad at so many different things, and you have no idea. And then you have the nerve to get mad at me for one mistake? And I admit, it was big. But there are so many things that I would love to say to your face, that I would love to point out to you. If you had actually listened to me and realized my values and the things that are super important to me, instead of being so egotistical and self-centered and closed-minded, then you would've realized that I gave up SO MUCH to be with you. And you weren't willing to give up a thing. What a dick. Fuck you. I honestly hope that all of your future relationships are ruined because of the memory of me, because you promised me that they would be. Not that you ever kept your promises.
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So, as much as I love my boyfriend, sometimes he is super annoying and he doesn't even realize it.
Like today. I called him last and we made plans to go shopping so he could pick out a $100 watch I am buying for him out of the blue. It was supposed to be a surprise, but something was pissing me off and I kind of let it slip about a week ago. The plans were tentative, but he had work until 11:30, so I told him that I'd be spending the morning looking for a new camera charger (lost it), and then we'd head out. So I'd probably meet him at the station that is TRES FAR FOR ME, but the one closest to his house at 1 ish. So I call him and see if that still works, and he's like, "No, I won't be able to make it until like 4:30."
THAT IS 3.5 HOURS LATER, MY LOVE. THREE AND A HALF.
But fine, no, it's totally fine. Whatever. I can go shopping to buy you an expensive gift BY MYSELF. Of course, no big deal. And then after we'll go out for dinner to meet your favourite uncle in the entire universe? Cool. I'm only living at my friend's place, and have no nice clothing. But sure, whatever. Let his first impression of me be in jeans and a sweatshirt. It's totally fine.
Boyfriends. They're annoying.
Sorry guys for the random posts. I've been watching romcoms and chickflicks since I got home from Queen's - beautiful campus and an amazing city. I still haven't made my decision yet. I'm not going to rank about how I got rejected from Mac though. Different story.
Anyway, I looooooooooooooooooooove this proposal. Tis uber cute. But I'm sorry, the ring should be in the box. The guy should get down on one knee. And the ring should fit. If you're going to propose, do it right.
But still, uber cute. The opening a bigger box thing until you get to your small gift is always a classic. I love it. Every time. :)
Anyway, back to Serendipity. One of my favourite chick flicks of all time. :) Again, it makes me feel like I'm in a fairytale. I hope it ends happily ever after.
So I know loving Taylor Swift is such a trend right now, but I've loved her since I heard Tim McGraw for the first time. Anyway, I absolutely love this video!
On that note, this song brings me back to someone who bullied me when I was a kid. And you know what, honestly, everyone's been bullied. Everyone experiences the same kinds of pain and the same hurt. I know it doesn't make me different or special.
But you know what, I stopped the cycle. I was strong. I forgave her/ him/ them all. I am not bitter. But karma is a bitch.
Who has the fairytale happily ever after? Me. Who has the grades? Me. Who has all the options in the world? Me. Who can lay their head on their pillow without any regrets? Me. Who has so many people who love them? Me. Who is a beautiful person? Me. I don't care if you disagree or not, I'm happy with my life. I'm proud of who I am. Things worked out for me. You are just jealous. I don't have anything against you and I don't wish anything bad on you.
I'm happy. That's what this song reminds me.
Love always, Prudence B.
All you are is mean, and a liar, and pathetic And alone in life and mean, and mean, and mean, and mean But someday, I'll be living in a big ol' city And all you'll ever gonna be is mean Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me And all you're even gonna be is mean
I'm completely psychotic. Wooooo. I signed up for 4 AP exams. FOUR. F-O-U-R! Chemistry (done), Calculus (done), Biology (soon to come) and Physics (immediately after that). Whatever, right?
Well, that's not my point. I have to study for bio and physics. On top of that, I have regular school, isus, work, band, MULTI NIGHT (I'M SO DEAD.) and chores.
Tonight alone, I stayed at school until 4 practicing River Dance (omfg, im dead.), then I studied for 3 hours, now I need to help my mom do computer stuff, clean my room, make lesson plans, organize my work folder and sleep. Yay.
I'll suffer through. Just needed to make a to do list, haha.
Love always, PrudenceB.
PS: This song is the only thing that gets me through the day. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YC9Jxi78G1I
I understand that some people have issues that they're concerned about, and they want to share these issues. Hell, I'm one of those people.
But they need to realize that most people don't care. And most people aren't going to be bought by facts and numbers and words and presentations. Because they've seen and heard it all before. And the most that's going to happen is they're going to think about it for five minutes, and then find something else to interest them.
The only people who are going to think about this issue are the people who probably already care or who already care about a different issue. And to the latter, the issue that they care about is probably more important.
It really bugs me when somebody thinks they know about their issue, but they really don't. And they really don't even care about the issue they're presenting about. Or they're hypocritical. Like, if I ask you a question about your issue and you read one website and give me a shitty answer and then tell me to read this website, and I do more research and more digging than you do and find the opposite of your answer, I'm sorry. Please, do not try to fool me. I care about global issues, I know how to use the Internet, and my number one favourite thing to do is research. Especially issues.
Next time, inform yourself before you try to inform others. Thanks.
PS: I bought new clothes today. And I am ordering shoes tomorrow. This makes me happy. :)
PPS: Long distance relationships have hope, right?