sometimes..

sometimes i just think whatever.
sometimes i look up to you like your the greatest person in the world.
then i look at your bad qualities.
and i think, do i really want to be like that?
and i just think whatever.
you talk down a lot.
you act like you know everything.
your often very repetitive.
you're bossy and can be incredibly rude.
you hold a grudge for way longer than forever.
you have fun, but you break rules.
you judge majorly.
you make the world pity you and take your side.
when really, your life doesnt suck that much.
you can be so self-righteous when others are doing so much more.
you pretend to care.
you criticize those who dont act exactly like you do.
like me.
just because im as much as a city person as i am an outdoorsy one.
yes, i listen to my ipod when i go on nature hikes.
but a lot of times, its off and its just an excuse to ignore you.
yes, i like the city.
but i like the country too.
yes, i couldnt live in a small town.
AT THE MOMENT.
but..
i dont smoke.
i dont drink.
im not a whore.
i dont take the pill.
i do normal things.
that may not be normal for you.
but im happy with who i am.
and sometimes, when i look at you, i see how insecure you really are.
i love you, and i love what you stand for.
but whatever.